Ever since my first performance of No Exit Upstage, I knew there were some things that I still wanted to fine tune. Unfortunately, being so involved with the project, I couldn’t grasp exactly what it was that I wanted to modify. Since I was in the middle of a run, I decided the best course of action was to, well, stay the current course and worry about it once the run was over. When the Ottawa Fringe Festival came to a close, inspiration still hadn’t hit and so I decided to give it a few days.
I am less then a week away from my trip to Winnipeg and I can feel that old panicky feeling rising up in my throat. I start feeling doubt and desperation and the pressure of my own high expectations. After all, since I don’t believe I currently have a perfect product, so why should I take it off the shelf for all to see? On top of that, I am running out of time…
Today was an interesting day of discussion about the show. It’s a hard lesson to learn, but sometimes you just have to let things go, let them breathe on their own and see where they might take you, instead of trying to force your vision upon them.
I consider myself a “do-er” and so I have trouble simply letting things rest. How will anything ever get done if you don’t “do” anything about it? I guess we’ll just have to see.